(ups) downs.

I am tired.
This heart constantly being challenged.
But I'm tired...
Sometimes wanting to give up; it's difficult to not give in.

He said to stay strong.
"But I'm tired.
I don't know how to go on."

Be still.
He reminded me to be still.
Be still.
Be still, and silent.
"Let My words speak deeply to your heart.
And be still."

Physically exhasted.
Waking up early, coming home late.
Kids not behaving, raising my voice.
Serving, praying, worshiping.
Searching for motivation...

Restoring a heart.
Your heart... my heart.
Love being renewed.
New love being discovered.

He knows the pain and confusion,
but reminds you of the passion.

He says to be still.
"Remember to be still.
Be still.
Be still and know who I Am."

I will continue.
I will be still.
I will recognize my Father.
I will not give in.
I will let Love enter my heart,
and I will love with complete abandon.

Will you?

homeowner.

Being a homeowner is weird, not gonna lie. I'm stuck. No more moving for me for a while... a long while actually.

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But I like that I'm stuck here. I like that I can't just pick up and leave... owning a home will definitely keep me grounded in the promise land.

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Yes, I said "the promise land." Kansas is just that.

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I have nothing profound to say... and it seems it's been that way for a while now. I'm currently in the desert. Either God is being extremely silent, or I haven't been a good listener; probably the latter.

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I down right suck at being a child of God sometimes... or most of the time I should say.

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But don't get me wrong, things are going well. I'm learning a lot and being challenged a lot. God is opening doors like mad. Within the next week I should be able to share about some of those pretty sweet opportunities.

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Until then, here are a some pictures of my beautiful new condo. Enjoy!

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My beautiful kitchen

Kitchen/dinning room

Living/dinning room

Living/dinning room/kitchen

Living room/view of loft

My office in the loft

1/2 bath off of the kitchen

My pretty bathroom

My bedroom