leadership

at any point that someone is identified as a leader or placed in a leadership position, that persons life changes drastically. the person becomes a target to watch 24/7. the person is viewed to have all the answers. the person is looked at to have wisdom concerning everything. the person is thought of as more spiritual than those not in a leadership role. the person is commonly looked at as... perfect. or atleast almost perfect.

why has our christian view on leadership turned into this? is it because since we know we ourselves mess up, we have hope that the ones guiding us and the ones teaching us won't screw up? is it because we long to have that comfort of another human watching out for us, helping to take care of us and make sure that we're doing okay? i don't get it... if someone does, explain it to me please.

every leader i've ever met is no where near perfect. i even know/have met some people in leadership positions that i've found it difficult to even like. this makes me wonder... how do some people even reach certain levels of leadership? is there a specific criteria? do you have to meet certain terms and regulations? i still don't get it...

... i don't get it because i am currently sitting in a leadership role. i am no different than the people i am helping to "lead." i mess up everyday, just like they do. i have trouble loving people everyday, just like they do. i don't always read my bible daily, just like they do. i get mad at God, just like they do. ... i also can hear the Lord's voice, just like they do. i pray, just like they do. i try and be obedient, just like they do. just like they do. just... like... they... do...

i am no different.

moses appointed people as leaders in deuteronomy from each tribe. he said that these people must "have wisdom, understanding, and a good reputation" to fit the job. wow... that's a lot to live up to if you ask me.

for some reason, the Lord trusts me to take this step up and lead. for some reason, God is trusting me. He is holding me to a higher standard now.

i am aware that no leader is perfect and i could very well be a leader... but deep down i still have that christian view... "all leaders are wise, super spiritual, and so close to perfect it makes me stand in awe"... yeah right is that me!

i accept this leadership role that i stand in and the challenges that come alongside leading... but still...

... i don't get it...